tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-39897852011-08-05T10:27:56.454-07:00Here's to a new beginningMichaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.comBlogger861100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-1143485134355126702006-03-27T10:38:00.000-08:002006-03-27T10:45:34.366-08:00some things people should be thinking about...is my Christian walk my own with God or is it my parents???what are my strengths and weaknesses???what am I passionate about???what is God's purpose for me, my family, my church???Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-1143215145782918582006-03-24T07:40:00.000-08:002006-03-24T07:45:45.793-08:00been waking up early these past few days.waking up to prayer requestswaking up to life's tougher questionsyesterday it was specific people, specific facestoday was specific issues in my life, in the church, in searching for a youth director for our youth at willowbrook.today was about preparing myself for tonight and for the weekend:praise night is tonight- still doesnt feel like we've coveredMichaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-1143141928630081732006-03-23T11:10:00.000-08:002006-03-23T11:25:28.643-08:00starting our new English Ministry again on June 4th. We're calling that day, D-Day (its so close to the actual date of D-day). We're also planning a retreat up in Wisconsin as a group over Memorial Day Weekend. I really hope this goes well. We've had to start and stop our ministry a few times now.On the reflective side, we tried out prayer positions this past Sunday. I hope it went well.what is Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-1116529524015408772005-05-19T12:02:00.000-07:002005-05-19T12:05:24.020-07:00wow...its been a year since my last blog. ever since xanga, my blog has just been left out in the dust. I dont think anyone really checks this site either. so, i guess it doesnt matter. hmmmm maybe perhaps I can my deep dark secrets here or maybe not.Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-1095953542427954822004-09-23T08:31:00.000-07:002004-09-23T08:32:22.426-07:00is TEXAS HOLD'EM getting overboard???
Deal 'em: Kids get drawn in by pokerBy Lisa BlackTribune staff reporterPublished September 23, 2004Jaws clenched, none of these steely-eyed poker players are ready to fold, but it's 7:55 a.m. and a good bet they'll be late for their first class at Stevenson High School if they don't get moving."Just one more hand! Just one more hand!" a few of them shout, Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-1085690882570182362004-05-27T13:44:00.000-07:002004-05-27T13:48:02.570-07:00Seeking God's Guidance???
How do we find genuine godly guidance? Seven words may help us.
CLEANSING, SURRENDERING, ASKING, MEDITATING, BELIEVING, WAITING, and RECEIVING
The first is cleansing. We need to ask: "What is there in my life that hinders me from hearing what You are saying?" Cleansing comes by confession (1 John 1:9).
The second word is surrendering. Surrender is both a humbling and Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-1085592109967299032004-05-26T09:22:00.000-07:002004-05-26T10:21:49.966-07:00the college years (part 2)...
SPORTS:
I started the year playing soccer (midfield as usual, but I got moved up to forward)-got injured and stopped enjoying it. The coach was horrible. I tried out for the club volleyball team, but i found myself short on time with other things. Didn't run track til my junior year. why? we built a new sports complex with a new 200m bouncy track. Now during this Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-1085500544555682432004-05-25T07:41:00.000-07:002004-05-25T08:55:44.556-07:00the college years (part I)...
so I applied to 10 schools and I got 10 acceptance letters. I didn't really know where to go from there. I thought God would just show me where to go. Anyways, I had to narrow things down a little (big vs small, location-close or far away from home, scholarship, play sports?, academic reputation, friends, major, christian community).
I ulitimately decided on Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-1085413657498228492004-05-24T08:27:00.000-07:002004-05-24T08:47:37.500-07:00my high school days...
i really dont know who wants to know this information, but I thought I'd post it so you can know a little bit more about me. I'll try to do a follow up blog on my college days as well. So, lets start off with some basic information.
I moved to Homewood, IL in 1989 from Dublin, OH. I attended Homewood-Flossmoor High School (thats also where Ronnie and my sister Debbie went)Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-1085412414148492932004-05-24T08:18:00.000-07:002004-05-24T08:26:54.146-07:00a weekend to rest and praise God for...
oh yes, finally, a weekend to rest and enjoy a personal life that God has given me. what does that mean exactly? it means mike gets to sleep in past 10am (i woke up at noon). do some needed household chores. hang out with friends. and eat good meals.
But before i go on, I truly am blessed by God. Cry Ice Tea was awesome and amazing. I know I was busy with Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-1084981939738581422004-05-19T08:48:00.000-07:002006-01-22T16:29:51.690-08:00Here's something I found oout today. Mike Cheng, I hope this helps with your thoughts on this particular issue.Colossians 3:1-17"' seeing that you have put off the old nature with its practices and have put on the new nature '" (vv.9-10, RSV)We continue from where we left off yesterday, saying that the reason why many of today's Christians surrender so easily to temptation is because they have Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-1084859228258299272004-05-17T22:35:00.000-07:002004-05-17T22:47:08.256-07:00I was reminded in friday night small group to pray for my future spouse. so here goes nothing.
i pray for my future wife out there (only God knows where she might be). so Lord if you will it, bless her with this prayer.
May she love you above all else, above herself and above me. May she be a prayer warrior and learn to be sensative to your Spirit. May she love me beyond my stupidity, Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-1084546538757079102004-05-14T07:26:00.000-07:002004-05-14T07:55:38.756-07:00Here's something I got from the DeenMachine...
Firsts
First job: paying job was a waiter @ Szechuan House
First screename: mliang74 (still the same)
First funeral: my small group leader's in college my sophmore year
First pet: Skittles our dog that passed away
First piercing/tattoo: None- but I'd like to get an earring
First true love: true agape love- Jesus
First enemy: hmmmm I don't think I Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-1084383342435975552004-05-12T10:28:00.000-07:002004-05-12T10:35:42.436-07:00lots of prayer requests out there...
as I was driving up to BP's house last night for prayer meeting, I realized how hard my heart has been to pray lately. It was actually bothering me the whole day. It just feels that I'm not allowing myself to be sensative to the Spirit. =(
As we started to pray, I couldnt help but be overwhelmed by the need to pray for people, the world, CCMC, and the Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-1084292601969203722004-05-11T09:16:00.000-07:002004-05-11T09:23:21.970-07:00calling/submission...
so we did a study on Eph 5:22- 6:9. about wives and husbands. children and parents. and slaves and masters. I notice the importance of the roles I live in. I notice the necessity of healthy relationships in each scenario. I notice the "agape" love needed. I notice the automatic submission required b/c of what has been already given me.
there are things I need to work on.
Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-1084200494776112882004-05-10T07:38:00.000-07:002004-05-10T07:48:14.776-07:00its hard to keep posting on 2 sites...
I noticed I'm slacking on updating this blog. =(
However, blogger seems to have changed its format to keep up with xanga.
Well, here are some recent updates.
I set 2 deadlines for myself:
1) End of July- to decide on taking some seminary classes
2) End of the year- to decide if full-time ministry is really where God is calling me
fears/reservations/Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-1083597281210707362004-05-03T08:14:00.000-07:002004-05-03T08:18:51.466-07:00relationships...
recently a lot of youth are experiencing issues with friendships, dating (pseudo), and relationships. I want to tell you guys and gals to just wait. You all are still so young in age. Enjoy life when you are young and still single. Enjoy God, Get to know HIM-really know him, study the word, learn how to pray, enjoy healthy friendships within the same gender, learn to serve the Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-1083446388938153792004-05-01T14:19:00.000-07:002004-05-11T12:32:20.250-07:00xanga or blog???
well, i started a xanga the other day (lao_ye_ye). Now I can comment and eprop. woo hoo! i hope i can be encouraging to you all.
I'm starting to like this song.
Surrender
By Marc James
I'm giving You my heart and all that is within
I lay it down for the sake of You my King
I'm giving You my dreams, I'm laying down my rights
I'm giving up my pride for the promise of new Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-1083252095225030532004-04-29T08:21:00.000-07:002004-04-29T08:25:45.590-07:00I just can't wait for the summer...
Not just because I get to go visit my parents in Shanghai, China or visit Beijing and the Great Wall and the Forbidden City.
Not just because of the warmer weather
Not just because of more fellowship time
Not just because the college folk are back
But because of what God is doing and will continue to do.
So, are you getting excited yet?
Are you getting Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-1083178744653098382004-04-28T11:59:00.000-07:002004-04-28T12:03:15.750-07:00a quick side note and a piece of information...
1) Cry Ice Tea is around the corner. We might have found a location---NPC Naperville Presbyterian Church in Naperville (west of Lincoln Jr. High). So, please keep praying for this event.
2) After some discussions with a few youth, I'm thinking about a new site on xanga. yes, yes assimilating to the crowd. However, I'll be able to post and comment Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-1083178346988457232004-04-28T11:52:00.000-07:002004-04-28T11:56:36.500-07:00continuing thoughts on community...
So, I've been listening to a message from OIL 2004. The speaker, Pastor Paul Kim, mentions this song:
Cheers Theme "Where Everbody Knows Your Name
Making your way in the world today takes everything you've got.
Taking a break from all your worries, sure would help a lot.
Wouldn't you like to get away?
Sometimes you want to go, where everybody knows your nameMichaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-1083101467844303722004-04-27T14:31:00.000-07:002004-04-27T14:35:15.686-07:00interesting words of a song when it relates to community...
Black Eyed Peas Lyrics
Where Is The Love? Lyrics
What's wrong with the world, mama
People livin' like they ain't got no mamas
I think the whole world addicted to the drama
Only attracted to things that'll bring you trauma
Overseas, yeah, we try to stop terrorism
But we still got terrorists here livin'
In the USA, the big CIA
The BloodsMichaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-1083037167117785002004-04-26T20:39:00.000-07:002004-04-26T20:43:33.840-07:00here's an interesting alphabet from Steph Yen
A - You can be very quiet when you have something on your mind.
B - You are always cautious when it comes to meeting new people.
C - You definitely have a partier side in you, dont be shy to show it.
D - You have trouble trusting people.
E - You are a very exciting person.
F - Everyone loves you.
G - You have excellent ways of viewing people.
H - YouMichaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-1083007164663075812004-04-26T12:19:00.000-07:002004-04-26T12:25:34.700-07:00TO DO LIST:
1) need to set aside 2-3 personal days to reflect, pray, and write down all the things God is saying to me.
need for prayer of wisdom and discernment
2) need to look over possible classes to take in the fall. 1-2 courses. Survey of the Old Testament and/or Systematic Theology.
3) need to set a deadline for me and God on this issue of calling. My thoughts are end of August or beg of Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-1082867938317358292004-04-24T21:38:00.000-07:002004-04-24T21:43:02.500-07:00Congrats to my old small group leader...
Greg Jao and his new wife Jennifer Ko (now Jao). Its about time! You're 36! oh wait, I'm not that far behind. = ( But it does set the upper limit of the bar. Well, we'll just have to see who the Lord provides.
on a side note: for those looking for this blog, there's not much here. I really dont update this too often. However, you can find out stuff Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-1082731831746165312004-04-23T07:50:00.000-07:002004-04-23T07:54:33.670-07:00Have you ever wished you could erase your memories?
I really don't know why I would want to do this. However, if I could, I'd erase one person in my life right now at this moment. I tried to forget about you for a year. Yet you seem to come back with ever more power. Why Lord why? Why can't you just make it all disappear?
Well, If you're interested in the process, go to www.lacunainc.com
HOW Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-1082486608587210142004-04-20T11:43:00.000-07:002004-04-20T11:47:28.310-07:00Ministry...
I really need to set aside some time to reflect, pray, and actively listen to what God wants me to do in life. Lately, its just been an awesome time enjoying HIM work in the community around me. Spring Camp, Good Friday, Easter, YAMs, Fri Night Small Groups, Sunday Services, and Prayer Meetings. Ah yes, it seems like my life before I left for St. Louis.
Lord, you definately work in Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-1063923831116660362003-09-18T15:23:00.000-07:002003-09-18T15:23:50.976-07:00training update...
so i ran again yesterday. ran outide on the pavement to be exact. Would have ran on the treadmill, but either the soles on my shoes are thin or the tread itself is slippery from something.
Anyways, getting back to the run. I ran about 15 min. ran 1 1/2 miles. Was doing well to start until I approached this hill. At first, it was like no problem. Then, some wall or truck hit meMichaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-1063744843230333732003-09-16T13:40:00.000-07:002003-09-16T13:40:42.903-07:00moving on in life...
the world definately doesnt stop if you need it to stop. People sometimes do, but you don't want to take their time away from others things that may be more pressing.
It seems like I'm stuck in a rut and I can't move forward. Why do I dwell in the past. Do I live in the past??? Have I always been like that or did something happen to change my attitude on life.
Seems like Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-1063737032554931922003-09-16T11:30:00.000-07:002003-09-16T11:31:04.373-07:00training for a short-track triathlon...
yes....this is a crazy idea of mine, but I figure it'll help me in 3 ways:
1) improve my health (relieve stress, inc. endurance, keep in shape)
2) become disciplined
3) challenge my life
3*) take my mind off of other things
3**) become a better swimmer, so I'm not scared to jump into the sea/ocean
well, yesterday I ran 5K (3.1 miles) on the treadmill of aMichaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-1063653556186971602003-09-15T12:19:00.000-07:002003-09-15T12:19:16.193-07:00Feeling alone...
It's scary when an extrovert feels alone. It could even be dangerous. Thank God my emotions are in check. But, as they say, "when it rains, it pours"
Actually, I'm a love me extrovert. The "love me" part stems from early childhood to even as early as when I was in my mom's womb. The extrovert (people person) stems from the sense of love within a community. I see God's love or Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-1063646474004298272003-09-15T10:21:00.000-07:002003-09-15T10:21:14.010-07:00Just need to give her up and just any idea of a relationship...
I start reading my old posts and laugh at my constant struggle. I feel like a failure. I feel like I'm trapped. Why can't I just give this up and let go? Why can't I just give it all to God? Why do I harbor it? why is this so freaking hard!!!!!
It's because that's what I desire the most in life- a relationship, one with Jenni to beMichaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-1060793112741657162003-08-13T09:45:00.000-07:002003-08-13T09:49:59.576-07:00its a constant spiritual battle...
even now I feel so pressed and upset. It's funny how Satan sends his demons to urk you at the 'right' times. It's scarier when we dont even recognize that they are at work. As much as Jenni bothers me, and like other times I feel like she can ask so much and take so much of my time and even create and well up anger, frustration, hurt, and other emotions; God I Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-1060792589297183562003-08-13T09:36:00.000-07:002003-08-13T09:41:16.216-07:00Had a real good time of prayer last night...
I never realized until last night how much anger, resentment, disappointment, lack of thankgiving and love, and a bit of jealously with my sister when it comes to my relationship with my parents. I've listened to some bad voice/spirit that accuses them of not being a parent that I have created in my mind from reading Scripture and in seeing it active Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-953262212003-06-05T06:43:00.000-07:002003-06-05T06:43:06.750-07:00looking through the rearview mirror...
i see my life has gone through a path of slow destruction apart from God. I seeked to find my worldly love with someone and dropping God along the way. Thats definately not the path to go. And whats sad is that I've gone down that path before. I can't make up for the time. I can't turn back the clock and change it either. I just pray and hope that God will Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-950487872003-05-29T13:20:00.000-07:002003-05-29T13:21:00.000-07:00one more day to go...last day at work in St. Louis...
I didn't do too much at work today. Just bummed and packed. Had lunch with some coworkers. Signed up for a conference at the end of June at some luxary resort in Colorado Springs. Waiting to go out for drinks.
Life in transition...
Here's to a hopeful change of scenary and people.
Strange thought just a second ago. If I were an animal, I'd Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-950173092003-05-28T19:25:00.000-07:002003-05-28T19:25:38.560-07:00the days in St. Louis are numbered...
For the past couple of weeks, all I have been doing is painting, cleaning, moving, and packing something or other. It's hard to believe that I'll be moving back home to Chicago. It's funny how I chose to use the word home. Home can be defied many ways. In the Christian arena, people say ,"Home is where the heart is." Home is also a sanctuary, a dwelling placeMichaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-941846542003-05-11T21:40:00.000-07:002003-05-11T21:40:02.336-07:00Relationships...
I've been doing a lot of pondering in this area as of late. I'm wondering why I don't have that many close friends, just a ton of friends. Recently, it just seems that when I need to talk to someone, no one is really there for me. All I need is someone to listen. Actually, to really care about me, which is to listen, make a tough comment, and encourage and keep accountability. Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-934354472003-04-28T18:29:00.000-07:002003-04-28T18:29:31.293-07:00inspection and the interview...
I had a pretty long day today. Woke up to make copies of our financial statements at the gas station. Drove up to get the house inspected. They found very few problems (probably since the previous owner didnt really live there at all for the past year). Don't get me wrong, there were a few minor details to work on. and the cost??? $400. yikes!
well, we need to get Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-932662252003-04-25T15:35:00.000-07:002003-04-25T15:35:44.456-07:00Headache and Depression....
Man does my head hurt with all of this house stuff. Mortgages....which one is better and why....all these numbers and figures.....AHHHHHH. then you have to sign all these forms and call all these people to do inspections, lawyer, home insurance and so on and so on. I think also because I didn't realize all the extra costs associated with buying a home. So many fees andMichaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-930858062003-04-22T19:33:00.000-07:002003-04-22T19:33:47.940-07:00a couple of days of answered prayers...
these past two days have been tremendous on a lot of fronts. I only have God to thank for answering them in such a quick time table. Okay, so here's a list of all the major things he's done:
1) ability to buy a place with ray for the price we wanted.
2) ability to get a loan from our mortgage corporation even though it was past the deadline.
3) getting my Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-923273952003-04-09T18:11:00.000-07:002003-04-09T18:12:41.000-07:00what's your defining moment???
it was a question asked this morning in a sermon on 91.5 (the Christian radio station in St. Louis). I don't think I have one yet. I pray that I do. The message was about Abraham and how he trusted God or rather had so much faith in Him that he was willing to sacrifice his one and only son Isaac. Resurrection....I can't phathom how Abraham would think his son wouldMichaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-923269932003-04-09T18:03:00.000-07:002003-04-09T18:03:56.200-07:00learned some more about reconciliation and forgiveness...
its amazing how God works sometimes. For instance, after monday's incident, tuesday brought messages of forgiveness and reconciliation from two radio shows. By that night, my heart and mind were convicted to go talk to Ray (in my case to call him). Actually, to ask him for forgiveness in feeling anger towards him. To resolve our friendshipMichaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-921922222003-04-07T19:33:00.000-07:002003-04-07T19:33:39.936-07:00betrayed by a friend...
what causes someone to back out of a deal to buy a house with you??? Because it was too confusing or because of money??? I may never know the true reason for Ray to back out of getting a house with me. Sometimes, like right now, I could care less. Friends just don't do that to other friends. I only wonder now where our friendship lies. Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-921159582003-04-06T17:53:00.000-07:002003-04-06T17:53:40.233-07:00i salute a friend, fraternity brother, and son of Mark & Nicky Beaupre...
Captain Ryan Beaupre, thank you for serving your country to defend it against terrorists near and far. Thank you for being a role model to others with your warm hospitality and your big smile. Thank you for being a man of honor and wit. Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-921082852003-04-06T14:58:00.000-07:002003-04-06T14:58:45.263-07:00officially a single man again...
Jenni and I officially parted ways over a phone call this afternoon. I have mixed emotions right now, but I think its the best for us. You'd understand if you knew everything that has happened between us. Will we get back together again??? like we usually do.. I don't know this time around. We shall see how I fair as time goes on. Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-917470132003-03-31T18:23:00.000-08:002003-03-31T18:23:01.796-08:00back from italy...
what a beautiful country of western history. I miss the food, the weather, the people, the so many sites from Florence to Rome to Naples. I can't wait to go back again.
Aside from PACE flags everywhere (even on the leaning tower of Pisa) or that every other building is older than our whole country, Italy is probably one of the best places I've been. SO much history...so much Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-900337542003-03-02T21:13:00.000-08:002003-03-02T21:13:37.140-08:00snowboarding and pain...
so im hear at the computer in pain and just sore. my neck, lower lumbar, and my head. I didnt fall too much, but I guess the whiplash gets you a bit later. =P I was prepared a little..had a knee pad and extra paddingn on the butt. But I got to tell you...it definately is a lot of fun. It's like skateboarding on ice/snow. ANd falling isnt that bad. unless its a big tumble.Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-898560622003-02-27T12:04:00.000-08:002003-02-27T12:04:25.903-08:00seeing ppl grow...
it's good to see people grow in Christ and establish that healthy relationship with God. It can bring a smile to your face or make your heart be blessed, peaceful and full of warmth. Praise God for doing a good work in Jenni!
then, you wonder why you might be struggling...
you just got to try and fight for that relationship with God. it won't be easy and most likely you Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-897374682003-02-25T14:32:00.000-08:002003-02-25T14:32:36.420-08:00starting to stress out...
I am starting to stress. why?
1) the markets are down just about every week. Whatever I bring in, the value goes down.
I get constant calls about the market and what to do with their money. Just holding cash seems to be an acceptable answer nowadays. (I m just glad to have a job right now).
2) parents are moving to Shanghai in a month.
3) war talk has gotten me in Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-876435092003-01-18T09:22:00.000-08:002003-01-18T09:24:01.000-08:00struggling already...
it's only 2-3 weeks into the new year and I'm struggling to get by on the new beginning. Actually, it's been really hard since Jenni has been back to do what I wanted to do. And that was to get back on track. Come to think of it, I'm not struggling, I'm failing.Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-872584852003-01-11T01:23:00.000-08:002003-01-11T01:23:05.063-08:00its official...
I have given up gambling. Tonight was my last night. I lost yet again in Missouri and so does everyone else I seem to speak with. As I was driving home, I thought of all the money that could be used for other things. Furthermore, I can be more productive with other things in life.Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-870375462003-01-06T18:35:00.000-08:002003-01-06T18:35:57.536-08:00very tired today...
Didnt get much sleep tonite. Worked til about 7pm. Had Einstein's for lunch and a lasagna frozen meal for dinner. I can't believe Im going to bed and its only 8:40pm. how sad!
Still too much on my mind. I shall write more later.
Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-869875362003-01-05T19:17:00.000-08:002003-01-05T19:17:01.090-08:00an excellent wife, who can find???
Psalm 31:10 states. further descriptives are
v. 11 "the heart of her husband trusts in her..."
and
v. 12 "she does him good and not evil all the days of her life."
and the killer verse
v.30 "charm is deceitful and beauty is vain, BUT a woman who fears the Lord, she shall be praised."
why concentrate on these verses right now??? Because my heart and eyes cry Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-869835132003-01-05T17:45:00.000-08:002003-01-05T17:45:04.693-08:00Finding out the Truth...
Sometimes you just want to find out what the truth is.
Sometimes you dont, because, it'll hurt you to the inmost being.
I am in a loss for words tonite. Deeply wounded. Troubled. And a fear that nothing will change.
I dont have any answers and I dont feel like praying.
God, just show me what to say, what to do, where to go from here.
I just dont know what to doMichaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-869758112003-01-05T14:16:00.001-08:002003-01-05T14:16:55.640-08:00on a side note...
how about them Pittsburgh Steelers?!?! Woohoo!
Don't call it a come back. Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-869757812003-01-05T14:16:00.000-08:002003-01-05T14:16:00.390-08:00Christ in you is hope for glory...
The message today from Colossians. Think about it and repeat it to yourself.
Christ is in you and actively working in your life when you accept Him. Its a full fledge battle that has been won. You may not see it yet, but thats the reason for the second half of the phrase....hope for glory. Don't forget what Christ has done for you. He's gone to death on the Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-869440522003-01-04T18:52:00.000-08:002003-01-04T18:52:38.000-08:00Learning to Hate Sin...
"But each one is tempted when he is carried away and enticed by his own lust. Then when lust has conceived, it gives birth to sin; and when sin is accomplished, it brings forth death." James 1:14 & 15.
You have the choice to choose life or death.
You have the choice to do it or not to do it.
You have a choice to make history or not.
You can either be a failure or live lifeMichaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-869204892003-01-04T05:45:00.000-08:002003-01-04T05:45:13.810-08:00moving day...
moved to my new corner office. moving up in the world eh? Not! I'm sharing a room with 2 other people. I feel like I'm in college again. Well, here's to a new beginning on Monday, January 6th. The new year work life and environment officially begins. more cold calls and hopefully more appts and more accounts. I have a goal to not to be fired, raise funds for a new house and to be Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-868616642003-01-02T20:54:00.000-08:002003-01-04T18:44:11.000-08:00Just do it...
once and still a slogan for nike corporation, a theme for my first camp at CCMC, and a notation in "shady's" aim note.
why bring up the phrase???
"As you therefore have received Christ Jesus the Lord, so walk in HIM." Colossians 2:6
Also,
"But prove yourselves doers of the word, and not merely hearers." James 1:22
Im rediscovering, slowly, all the areas i lack and need to depend Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-868066262003-01-01T17:46:00.000-08:002003-01-01T17:47:31.000-08:00choices not voices (the world's voice that is)...
I thought I'd run some errands today, but the only thing not open is where I need to go. Groceries. Okay, so I've already side tracked.
Mr. & Mrs. Andrew Wang once told me that their lives today were built on many tiny choices they made. Don't look too far, make the proper choice with God's leading. Always pray.
Pastor Nick once said that we mustMichaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-867919112003-01-01T10:30:00.000-08:002003-01-01T10:30:32.276-08:00without trust, there can be no love...jealousy will lead to madness...
These words are part of the script from the Moulin Rouge. Sometimes I feel that way towards someone. I'm sorry I do. I wish it wasnt like this or rather I wish I wouldnt feel that way.
There is a verse I hope to learn more about. I was reminded by my brother Lyle in Colossians 3:12-14.
" And so, as those who have been chosenMichaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-867740622002-12-31T20:47:00.000-08:002002-12-31T20:47:18.650-08:00happy new year...
It's that time of year again for new years resolutions. But, I don't believe it. So, I never write down anything. I have noticed that when I say "I promise" such and such I don't always follow through. Thats not good at all. So, I've stopped saying "I promise". Nowadays, I'm pretty much I'll do it when i darn well feel like it. I fail on the completion end. If there's one thing Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-867516222002-12-31T08:21:00.000-08:002002-12-31T20:41:29.000-08:00pissed off...
So I'm am hurt and angry against my mom and dad today. I ordered my dad an aluminum laptop briefcase for Christmas. It still hasn't arrived yet. My mom being fully aware of the present went shopping with us on Saturday in Oakbrook Mall. While they were there, they bought 2 large suitcases and at the same store my dad saw a regular samsonite briefcase for $75 (from $300) and guess Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-864529582002-12-23T14:45:00.000-08:002002-12-23T14:45:59.963-08:00Who is David Jacoby from Farmingdale, NY????.....
That is a new question of mine that I hope will be answered.
On the shopping end, I can say that I'm done. They're not the greatest gifts, but they'll just have to do. 'cause it's the thought that counts!
On the mail side, I just received some fun Christmas mail from two of my friends. Both expecting their second newborns. WOW! Congratulations Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-862991982002-12-19T18:42:00.000-08:002002-12-19T18:42:34.466-08:00An old friend on TV...
So, I'm randomly watching TV tonite and find out the and old college buddy of mine is on TV. To be more exact, he's on the new High School Reunion Show on the WB. He's name is Benjamin Reb a.k.a "the nerd". He's a fraternity brother and a fellow poker player back in the day. Man, this is so wild.Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-862873982002-12-19T13:32:00.000-08:002002-12-19T13:32:39.546-08:00What makes someone cheap???
If someone goes to a nice restaurant, such as PFChang, and has dinner that would have cost $100 for 4 people and doesnt have to pay for it and just leaves a $5 tip. Now, does this classify someone as a cheap person??? I dont know about you, but I've worked in a restaurant and I've been served in a restaurant. I thought its standard to tip 15% and 20% if the service isMichaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-862825872002-12-19T11:32:00.000-08:002002-12-19T13:36:02.000-08:00A Need to start Reading the Bible again...
To help one grasp what God is trying to say in your life you must do 5 things (Priscilla used to give a visualization on this: try and hold up the bible with your 5 fingers). Each finger so to speak represents one thing.
1) Indulge yourself in prayer--prepare yourself to be with God, grow a relationship with Him.
2) Study the Word--take good notes, Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-862571242002-12-18T21:46:00.000-08:002002-12-18T21:46:39.276-08:00Knowing when God speaks....
God speaks loud and clear sometimes. We must learn how to just obey and follow Him.
I'm reading this passage that hits close to home. Matthew 15: 8, 11, 14
v. 8 " This people honors me with their lips, but their heart is far away from me."
v11 " Not what enters into the mouth defiles the man, but what proceeds out of the mouth, this defiles the man."
Actually if you Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-862566052002-12-18T21:31:00.000-08:002002-12-18T21:31:49.120-08:00putting off what I should do...
I just got off the phone with 2 ppl I care about. The first, mending a relationship and trying to move on in the light of where God is bringing not only the 2 of us, but our "old men" group together in HIM. And the second, unfortunately, just like other discussions in relation to our future or to God or some sort of spiritual discussion ends in a dead end. I dont Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-862203402002-12-18T06:59:00.000-08:002002-12-18T06:59:19.910-08:00trying to get over a cold...
its been awhile since i last blogged. I've been a little under the weather. Yesterday, I went home and slept from 6pm til this morning. Crazy I say, but i feel better (at least for now).Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-859017202002-12-12T09:20:00.000-08:002002-12-12T09:22:26.000-08:00here's a blogsite to check out....
http://sud.blogspot.com/
its spiritually inviting and where I'd like to be with God right now. how did i find it? actually trying to do a search for ray ray's blog page. Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-859010692002-12-12T09:07:00.000-08:002002-12-12T09:07:29.470-08:00chicken pox...
My sister just called me and told me she might have chicken pox. YIKES! Well, there hasn't been a confirmation yet, but red splotches, itchyness all over the body would lead me to believe it is. (since she hasnt had it yet either). Well mei mei, looks like you get to start Christmas Break earlier. =D Also, its contagious, so be careful.Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-858752862002-12-11T20:03:00.000-08:002002-12-11T20:03:16.356-08:00jealousy....
part 1 (at work)
so im really jealous and most likely annoyed at this guy at work. When we were first starting at MS, I helped him out with this prospective client (b/c he didnt know a lot about the industry in general). Anyways he opens the account up for this really nice lady and we were supposed to form a partnership. Well, he ditched me to use a SVP to help him close deals. So Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-858139202002-12-10T18:05:00.000-08:002002-12-10T18:05:29.093-08:00moving back to chicago...
I'm pretty sure I'll be moved back by May (my lease ends in May). Still a lot to think about. Where to live? Which office to work? Will I go back to CCMC? I'll be far away from Jenni too. Plus, my parents are moving to Shanghai for 3-5 yrs. Yikes!
I think it'll be a little strange for me. Reinserting myself in a community that I thought I felt so comfortable in. I'm Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-857088872002-12-08T19:56:00.000-08:002002-12-08T19:56:06.476-08:00starting to work out again...
woke up this morning and exercised on the treadmill and the bike. Can't lift anything still from my rib injury. Man, I am totally out of shape. I thought I'd be better since turkey bowl. But, nope, I'm not. Barely ran over a mile and biked for about 20 minutes. Pathetic. I did make up for it at night. Played some basketball. One of my least like sports on my list. Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-855983662002-12-06T08:53:00.000-08:002002-12-06T08:53:48.260-08:00My Ribs are killing me....
I have no idea if they're bruised or broken. But, I do know one thing. It hurts more now then when i got injured. It hurts to put pressure on it. It hurts when i breathe. It hurts a ton when i cough or sneeze. Grrrrrrr. Should have let Roland run by me. And why haven't I gone to the doctor yet to get x-rays. Because either way, I'll have to do the same thing. Just take Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-855748902002-12-05T20:13:00.000-08:002002-12-05T20:13:34.290-08:00finally a decision...
Jenni is finally going to make a decision on which job to take. Thank God for answering prayers. I didnt have a choice back then to make (between one or the other). I think I took whichever job was available at the time (actually, I was in Josh Koh's family room after church laughing at the job description and about how I could get the job with my broken Chinese skills). GodMichaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-855160762002-12-04T18:53:00.000-08:002003-01-01T10:44:20.000-08:00getting back to square one...
why do i need a new beginning?
2 big reasons:
1) Lost sight of who HE is:
This is by far the scariest to me. I dont know who HE is anymore and what HE means to me and what HE has done for me. Just writing these things doesnt even bring a tear to my eye. (It does though on Sundays at church and sometimes when I'm all alone.) Really scary from where I've been or what Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-855042152002-12-04T14:33:00.000-08:002002-12-04T14:33:16.636-08:00I saw the funniest thing today....
a short and sweet story. so, I was driving in the worst weather to hit St. Louis in sometime. 1 inch of snowfall basicaly crippled all the expressways in the area. I believe 2 highways were completely shut down. And why weren't there any snow plows out???? I have no idea, but I think they just didnt believe it would snow. So, as it took me 2 hours to get into Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-855038242002-12-04T14:24:00.000-08:002002-12-04T14:24:43.456-08:00Prayer...
When in doubt pray
When in trouble pray
Thankful for anything? Pray
It's definately something we all need to do throughout the day. If not, I think life gets a little crazy on us.
what do you pray about? EVERYTHING AND ANYTHING!
how do you pray? in many ways, but always prepare your heart for the "special" time with God and you.
Its all about developing a relationship with Him.
who Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-854066832002-12-02T17:32:00.000-08:002002-12-02T17:32:02.913-08:00surfing the web...
Christmas is an interesting time of year. Its supposed to be a time to celebrate the birth of Christ, but nowadays its mostly to shop weeks in advance to buys gifts for family, those close to you, and coworkers and perhaps others. Gifts are so hard to get sometimes. Usually people have everything and youre just trying to get something they probably really dont need but wouldntMichaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-854063682002-12-02T17:24:00.000-08:002002-12-02T17:26:11.000-08:00random thoughts....
okay so my favorite verse is 1 Corinthians 13: 4-8a
" Love is patient, love is kind, and is not jealous; love does not brag and is not arrogant, does not act unbecomingly; it does not seek its own, is not provoked, does not take into account a wrong suffered, does not rejoice in unrighteousness, but rejoices with the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-854058672002-12-02T17:14:00.000-08:002002-12-02T17:26:22.000-08:00so another day comes and fades....
didnt sleep until 1:30am. And wasnt the best rest either. Too much on my mind still. Ah, how i wish i could be a kid again. Then again. Actually, I wish I just graduated from college. Man were those some great days. Great to see God move and all around the place.
~*~ taking a break ~*~
im trying to cook some korean food tonite. i wish i knew how to cook some Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-853566822002-12-01T18:57:00.000-08:002002-12-02T17:26:39.000-08:00So, where shall i begin?
In one of Pastor Nick's sermons, he suggests to choose a verse out of the Bible to represent where God wants to lead you. As much as this is a good idea. I think I need to pass on the idea, because my heart needs to be prepared and primed for the operation (Sin is cancerous-it spreads and kills healthy cells). Plus, I wouldnt know which one to choose. So, I'm off to prayMichaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3989785.post-853542942002-12-01T18:02:00.000-08:002002-12-01T18:03:34.000-08:00God how I want to start anew again. Refreshed. Born again.
......I really dont know how I'm going to get there. (geez...where do i start?)
......I really dont know how long this will last either (I've never really kept up with a journal), but my sis says to at least try. There's also a passage about getting back up over and over again to finish the race. (see....I've been out of the race for Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04251072652953555348noreply@blogger.com0