learned some more about reconciliation and forgiveness...
its amazing how God works sometimes. For instance, after monday's incident, tuesday brought messages of forgiveness and reconciliation from two radio shows. By that night, my heart and mind were convicted to go talk to Ray (in my case to call him). Actually, to ask him for forgiveness in feeling anger towards him. To resolve our friendship, in a sense, over a small thing (although it seemed huge then).

I've also learned a little about myself and how i define forgiveness. I have realized that i have a hard time forgiving not only myself for things I've done but also forgiving others, especially those around me. I usally would hold a grudge and lately I've been resorting to you harmed me, now i'll harm you so you know how i feel about it. Man, do I need to grow up more. =P