Headache and Depression....
Man does my head hurt with all of this house stuff. Mortgages....which one is better and why....all these numbers and figures.....AHHHHHH. then you have to sign all these forms and call all these people to do inspections, lawyer, home insurance and so on and so on. I think also because I didn't realize all the extra costs associated with buying a home. So many fees and costs. Anyways, on top of all the forms, Ray is gone on business so its a little more complicating than usual. No blame on ray here. just a little more tricky to do things. And finally, its all due in like 5 days or something.....AHHHHHHHH

so anyways as this doesnt seem like its enough, I think I'm having issue problems with my life. A bunch of old thoughts and problems flaring up. on top of that loneliness and missing this place down here in st louis and all my coworkers I've gotten to know in the last 2 years.

Ah well.
must pray, pray pray pray and trust that God will provide and provide much grace and peace of mind.
Jesus help me!