Ministry...
I really need to set aside some time to reflect, pray, and actively listen to what God wants me to do in life. Lately, its just been an awesome time enjoying HIM work in the community around me. Spring Camp, Good Friday, Easter, YAMs, Fri Night Small Groups, Sunday Services, and Prayer Meetings. Ah yes, it seems like my life before I left for St. Louis.

Lord, you definately work in most interesting ways.
like after over this past year,
1) in the passage of the rich young ruler, must the words of peter echo in the back of my mind.
2) hearing from my sister that my parents wouldnt mind me going to take some classes at Moody, Trinity, or Wheaton.
3) talking to people I've served with over the numerous years that they've been either praying for me about ministry or they'd encourage me to go.
4) my knees crumbling to kneel and sing those tough worship songs that address HIM being my life, my all in all, the only one I praise, glorify and enjoy.
5) the tears that fall as I think about the people I get the privilege to serve.
6) the hours of restless nights just thinking about what if...
7)

so, why am I so scared? and why don't I just drop it all and go? am I being called?

I leave with this song:
Who am I - Casting Crowns


Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours

Who am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

I am Yours
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
'Cause I am Yours
I am Yours