Learning to Hate Sin...
"But each one is tempted when he is carried away and enticed by his own lust. Then when lust has conceived, it gives birth to sin; and when sin is accomplished, it brings forth death." James 1:14 & 15.
You have the choice to choose life or death.
You have the choice to do it or not to do it.
You have a choice to make history or not.
You can either be a failure or live life to experience and praise God.

Trust me, its not an easy road at all. It'll be tough. And Im not even close in knowing anything.

and if you do fail or choose the wrong thing...
ask for forgiveness and pray next time.
get back up and run the race of life that God has given you.
Because if you dwell on the past or not learn from the past. You're not learning at all.

Don't let sin conquer you. Jesus has already conquered it for you. And dont take that for granted. Every time you sin, it should hurt you...create spiritual pain. the longing or the hurting of Christ.

One last thought,
without sin, we wouldnt have the word Grace.

moving day...
moved to my new corner office. moving up in the world eh? Not! I'm sharing a room with 2 other people. I feel like I'm in college again. Well, here's to a new beginning on Monday, January 6th. The new year work life and environment officially begins. more cold calls and hopefully more appts and more accounts. I have a goal to not to be fired, raise funds for a new house and to be able to have a job to pay for the place.

Just do it...
once and still a slogan for nike corporation, a theme for my first camp at CCMC, and a notation in "shady's" aim note.
why bring up the phrase???
"As you therefore have received Christ Jesus the Lord, so walk in HIM." Colossians 2:6

Also,
"But prove yourselves doers of the word, and not merely hearers." James 1:22

Im rediscovering, slowly, all the areas i lack and need to depend on God. One being the lack of finishing. In all the things in my life, I like them to be fast, quick, and not too long. Maybe thats why i never ran distance or liked to play midfield in soccer. I'm like the apostle Peter in weird way, like to just jump off the boat. Also, I need to be more disciplined or controlled. I always grimmiced at the last fruit of the Spirit (self-control).
So, pray for me in these areas.

choices not voices (the world's voice that is)...
I thought I'd run some errands today, but the only thing not open is where I need to go. Groceries. Okay, so I've already side tracked.
Mr. & Mrs. Andrew Wang once told me that their lives today were built on many tiny choices they made. Don't look too far, make the proper choice with God's leading. Always pray.
Pastor Nick once said that we must make decisions not just on good or bad, but the best and good. God always wants the best from us.

There's a lot of choices in my life to make soon.
1) God
2) Relationships
3) Places to live
etc...

Help me to pray Lord and help me to want to read your Word and bring people to know you. I know I can't do it myself. So, Lord please lead the way.

without trust, there can be no love...jealousy will lead to madness...
These words are part of the script from the Moulin Rouge. Sometimes I feel that way towards someone. I'm sorry I do. I wish it wasnt like this or rather I wish I wouldnt feel that way.
There is a verse I hope to learn more about. I was reminded by my brother Lyle in Colossians 3:12-14.

" And so, as those who have been chosen of God, holy, and beloved, put on a heart of compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness, and patience; bearing with one another, and forgiving each other, whoever has a compliant against anyone; just as the Lord forgave you, so also should you. And beyond all these things put on love, which is the perfect bond of unity."

I lack all these virtues. (well, maybe except kindness). Some in a more increasing scale than others, such as gentleness and patience. But I dont want to miss out on the main conclusion for why Paul writes these words of wisdom. Its about redemption and the wrath of God. Even further, these words are for us to draw near to HIM and for us to help draw others to HIM from our testimony of our lives.


I wish I was there for his insights on what God has to say through these things (For those back home, go into Sunday School to be teached and blessed by one of the best teachers at CCMC. Really! Go and be blessed and have that same attitude every time you go there.)

happy new year...
It's that time of year again for new years resolutions. But, I don't believe it. So, I never write down anything. I have noticed that when I say "I promise" such and such I don't always follow through. Thats not good at all. So, I've stopped saying "I promise". Nowadays, I'm pretty much I'll do it when i darn well feel like it. I fail on the completion end. If there's one thing I need to work on is finishing. That's all I really have to say.
oh yes, I forgot. I started reading Mansfield Park. I thought I'd start reading something. And why Mansfield? Because I watched it on DVD over the holidays.

pissed off...
So I'm am hurt and angry against my mom and dad today. I ordered my dad an aluminum laptop briefcase for Christmas. It still hasn't arrived yet. My mom being fully aware of the present went shopping with us on Saturday in Oakbrook Mall. While they were there, they bought 2 large suitcases and at the same store my dad saw a regular samsonite briefcase for $75 (from $300) and guess what. He BOUGHT it. And did my mother say anything???? NOPE!!! Now that he has his briefcase that he found, he doesnt need the Christmas gift we bought him. SO, they want me to return it. What the heck was the point in ordering, buying, and having the briefcase delivered to the house in Frankfort??? And does the gift mean anything from us (esp my sis and I)??? NOPE!!!! not at all. It means nothing. And that's all a gift is. If someone doesnt like it, they dont like it. Irregardless of the giver of the gift.
Whatever.
Another Christmas gift they'ver either not used or returned from me.
Why give them a gift next year??? Theres no point.