Congrats to my old small group leader...
Greg Jao and his new wife Jennifer Ko (now Jao). Its about time! You're 36! oh wait, I'm not that far behind. = ( But it does set the upper limit of the bar. Well, we'll just have to see who the Lord provides.

on a side note: for those looking for this blog, there's not much here. I really dont update this too often. However, you can find out stuff about me here or there.

Wow, I'm always amazed at how God works sometimes. For example, yesterday I was looking through the Bible during friday night bible study for topics to possibly speak on for youth sunday service or for us as a ministry to touch on. And low and behold my sis brings back some CDs from OIL 2004 and the closing message used the same exact passages. Craziness! WOOHOO! Praise God!

Have you ever wished you could erase your memories?
I really don't know why I would want to do this. However, if I could, I'd erase one person in my life right now at this moment. I tried to forget about you for a year. Yet you seem to come back with ever more power. Why Lord why? Why can't you just make it all disappear?

Well, If you're interested in the process, go to www.lacunainc.com

HOW DOES IT WORK?

Step One: The Initial Meeting
The first meeting with Dr. Mierzwiak serves primarily as an introductory meeting where the patient will be given a tour of the facility and a chance to meet the staff. After that, the patient will sit down for a consultation with Dr. Mierzwiak. While the possibilities for this procedure are endless, it is important that the patient and the doctor have a full understanding of each other's expectations for the patient's personal case. This helps the Lacuna team tailor the procedure to best serve the patient.

Step Two: Preparing for the procedure
After a patient decides of the specifics of what memory he/she is going to have erased, there is some initial preparation that goes into a successful procedure. The patient is instructed to collect any items or mementos that have any ties to the memory that is being targeted. These items will be used by the Lacuna team during and disposed of following the procedure. This is to ensure that the patient won't have any unexplainable items after the memory erasure.

Step Three: Mapping the memory
The team of Lacuna technicians will use the information they have received and the items brought in by the patient to create a map of the memory. They will then use this map to extract the memory from the patients mind.

Step Four: The Procedure
Following the map created specifically for every patient, Dr. Mierzwiak and his team will begin to erase the targeted memory. The procedure works on a reverse timeline, which means it begins with the most recent memories and goes backwards in time. This approach is designed to target the emotional core that every memory builds on. By eradicating the core, Dr. Mierzwiak is able to make the entire memory dissolve. When the patient wakes up from the surgery, they remember nothing.

Yes, yes just a pitch for a good movie...Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind

Ministry...
I really need to set aside some time to reflect, pray, and actively listen to what God wants me to do in life. Lately, its just been an awesome time enjoying HIM work in the community around me. Spring Camp, Good Friday, Easter, YAMs, Fri Night Small Groups, Sunday Services, and Prayer Meetings. Ah yes, it seems like my life before I left for St. Louis.

Lord, you definately work in most interesting ways.
like after over this past year,
1) in the passage of the rich young ruler, must the words of peter echo in the back of my mind.
2) hearing from my sister that my parents wouldnt mind me going to take some classes at Moody, Trinity, or Wheaton.
3) talking to people I've served with over the numerous years that they've been either praying for me about ministry or they'd encourage me to go.
4) my knees crumbling to kneel and sing those tough worship songs that address HIM being my life, my all in all, the only one I praise, glorify and enjoy.
5) the tears that fall as I think about the people I get the privilege to serve.
6) the hours of restless nights just thinking about what if...
7)

so, why am I so scared? and why don't I just drop it all and go? am I being called?

I leave with this song:
Who am I - Casting Crowns


Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours

Who am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

I am Yours
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
'Cause I am Yours
I am Yours