looking through the rearview mirror...
i see my life has gone through a path of slow destruction apart from God. I seeked to find my worldly love with someone and dropping God along the way. Thats definately not the path to go. And whats sad is that I've gone down that path before. I can't make up for the time. I can't turn back the clock and change it either. I just pray and hope that God will bring me back to Him. I pray that God will lighten her heart as well. I don't want it to be me trying to do it. I know I'll need to struggle through it. I don't want it to be false and temporary. Help me Lord and make it true. Free me of my sin. Bring me back to you.

Reading scripture again (the Gospel of Mark) and trying to play guitar before i sleep. Most importantly...praying. Being on my knees. But the toughest things i decided to do is to 'take my eyes and pluck them out' so I wont fall prey to sin. No more internet at home. No more significant other in my life. No more sensual media in movies or tv.

God how I want that life back again when I graduated college and just wanted to serve You and only You. Missionary attitude.