An old friend on TV...
So, I'm randomly watching TV tonite and find out the and old college buddy of mine is on TV. To be more exact, he's on the new High School Reunion Show on the WB. He's name is Benjamin Reb a.k.a "the nerd". He's a fraternity brother and a fellow poker player back in the day. Man, this is so wild.

What makes someone cheap???
If someone goes to a nice restaurant, such as PFChang, and has dinner that would have cost $100 for 4 people and doesnt have to pay for it and just leaves a $5 tip. Now, does this classify someone as a cheap person??? I dont know about you, but I've worked in a restaurant and I've been served in a restaurant. I thought its standard to tip 15% and 20% if the service is good. Now, if you have a coupon of some sort, you should give them at least the 15% including the item deducted off the bill. Thats just me.

A Need to start Reading the Bible again...
To help one grasp what God is trying to say in your life you must do 5 things (Priscilla used to give a visualization on this: try and hold up the bible with your 5 fingers). Each finger so to speak represents one thing.
1) Indulge yourself in prayer--prepare yourself to be with God, grow a relationship with Him.
2) Study the Word--take good notes, examine it, question it
3) Listen to the Word--from messages or from hymns and songs
4) Memorize Scripture--to keep it close to the heart and mind
5) Practice it--Obedience is the key here. Don't settle for the second best....Settle for the BEST!

Knowing when God speaks....
God speaks loud and clear sometimes. We must learn how to just obey and follow Him.

I'm reading this passage that hits close to home. Matthew 15: 8, 11, 14
v. 8 " This people honors me with their lips, but their heart is far away from me."
v11 " Not what enters into the mouth defiles the man, but what proceeds out of the mouth, this defiles the man."
Actually if you continue this thought to verses 15-10 where Christ is trying to explain it to Peter....
"But the things that proceed out of the mouth come from the heart, and those defile the man. For out of the heart come evil thoughts, murders, adulteries, fornications, thefts, false witness, slanders."
Oh, how my heart needs to be changed.
Psalm 51.
And here's a verse that kills me....
v 14b "...they are blind guides of the blind. And if a blind man guides a blind man, both will fall into a pit."
I cannot help guide this relationship with Jenni now or into the future without God. I would be leading 2 blind people down a narrow road.
Help me be a man of God.

putting off what I should do...
I just got off the phone with 2 ppl I care about. The first, mending a relationship and trying to move on in the light of where God is bringing not only the 2 of us, but our "old men" group together in HIM. And the second, unfortunately, just like other discussions in relation to our future or to God or some sort of spiritual discussion ends in a dead end. I dont understand how I can be part of each relationship; however, if I have 2 different or more masks, it is possible to live in 2 separate lives, just not being true to one's own self in one or rather not being true to the Creator.

So, which shall I choose is the question?? A life of godliness or a life without.
"He that abides in me, I will abide in me. He that does not, will perish or bear no fruit"
One is very hard to do the either is not. One is uncomfortable, the other is not. For those who might be reading this, please pray for me. I desperately need it right now. Thanks!

trying to get over a cold...
its been awhile since i last blogged. I've been a little under the weather. Yesterday, I went home and slept from 6pm til this morning. Crazy I say, but i feel better (at least for now).