what's your defining moment???
it was a question asked this morning in a sermon on 91.5 (the Christian radio station in St. Louis). I don't think I have one yet. I pray that I do. The message was about Abraham and how he trusted God or rather had so much faith in Him that he was willing to sacrifice his one and only son Isaac. Resurrection....I can't phathom how Abraham would think his son would be resurrected. But, it is amazing to know that he did.

learned some more about reconciliation and forgiveness...
its amazing how God works sometimes. For instance, after monday's incident, tuesday brought messages of forgiveness and reconciliation from two radio shows. By that night, my heart and mind were convicted to go talk to Ray (in my case to call him). Actually, to ask him for forgiveness in feeling anger towards him. To resolve our friendship, in a sense, over a small thing (although it seemed huge then).

I've also learned a little about myself and how i define forgiveness. I have realized that i have a hard time forgiving not only myself for things I've done but also forgiving others, especially those around me. I usally would hold a grudge and lately I've been resorting to you harmed me, now i'll harm you so you know how i feel about it. Man, do I need to grow up more. =P

betrayed by a friend...
what causes someone to back out of a deal to buy a house with you??? Because it was too confusing or because of money??? I may never know the true reason for Ray to back out of getting a house with me. Sometimes, like right now, I could care less. Friends just don't do that to other friends. I only wonder now where our friendship lies.

i salute a friend, fraternity brother, and son of Mark & Nicky Beaupre...
Captain Ryan Beaupre, thank you for serving your country to defend it against terrorists near and far. Thank you for being a role model to others with your warm hospitality and your big smile. Thank you for being a man of honor and wit.

officially a single man again...
Jenni and I officially parted ways over a phone call this afternoon. I have mixed emotions right now, but I think its the best for us. You'd understand if you knew everything that has happened between us. Will we get back together again??? like we usually do.. I don't know this time around. We shall see how I fair as time goes on.